Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Quiet Ramblings...

I'm in a sleepy half awake relaxed moment. I'm sitting here in the dark. Gracie and Robby are both sleeping. Gracie didn't want to go to sleep and fought it until about 15 minutes ago. I know, I'm a bad mom for letting her stay up late. She was watching Super Friends. So sue me. I let her get by with lots. Somedays anyways.

But, anyways, as I was saying I'm sitting here in the dark....thinking. My mind was just wandering. I love the quiet. These are the moments when I have my most sanity. I think anyways. Thoughts are my own right now. I don't have to think about anyone else at the moment. I can just be....me. I'm not a mom or a wife. Now, don't get me wrong I LOVE MY LIFE. But I enjoy this time of my own. I can sit and contemplate things going on in my life...I can fantasize and dream of the future. I can see things for what they are. And for what they can be.

I haven't been on here much to check on you guys...I really need to get caught up on the latest news. Any gossip??? Let me know! Everything has been about the same here...Robby FINALLY decided to get a lawyer to deal with compensation. I swear they are out to drive us crazy. All we want is for things to be back to normal. And if not back to normal, something resembling it. Robby is a smart man. But he doesn't have training for a lot of the jobs around here. He knows construction, and since he can't do that WHAT DO THEY EXPECT OF HIM?? Sorry, can you tell the stress has begun to take over. But I have to remain the calm one....the one to take care of everything. That's my job. Or the one I've taken on. I really don't mind. Yes, I have my moments. But I want my family to feel secure, and at this moment I would do anything to make sure it happens. Love does that....makes you stronger.

Mentioning love, I hope that all of you have a wonderful Valentine's Day and can be with the one you love. Whether it is a parent or child or lover. I just wish the best for you. Enjoy each day like it's your last. We never know what will come, so don't dwell on the sad. We are all loved, even when we don't know it.

Hugs and kisses to all.